Little one,
I can't promise to be a perfect mother, but I promise to try to be perfect for you.
I want to be able to give you the two most important things in life - Jesus, and good education. With those you can go wherever you want to go in life, and achieve anything. I want to be able to provide for you; give you the best of everything you'll ever need. That will be my sole responsibility. I want to be able to give you better opportunities than i have gotten, because i want you to excel far above my own accomplishments.
I want to walk you through all the stages of your life, and teach what you need to know to survive each one. I want to be there when you say your first word and when your first tooth falls off. I want to be there to nurse every bruise and to tuck you in every night with a kiss. I never want to miss any key events in your life, so you can be convinced that no matter what happens, you'll always have a strong support system. I want to be there for every sports game, theater show, concert. I want to be able to sit in the audience and scream your name till I run out of breath or lose my voice. I want to be able to tap the lady next to me and say "hey, that's my child!" I want to drive you to your first day of school, and watch you walk down the aisle at graduation. I want to support your dreams and aspirations - financially, emotionally, and otherwise. I want to be the one to lay you a strong foundation, one on which you can keep building your life and withstand any form of adversity.
I want us to be able to talk to each other...about anything and everything. I want to be the one you talk to about life. About morality and religion, about sex and puberty, about love and feelings, about peer pressure, about failure and imperfection, about dignity and self respect...about everything that makes you human. I want to be the source of your greatest and most commendable advice. I want to be there when you make friends and learn to share your life with others so I can help you see the beauty in living for more than just yourself. I want to be there when you get hurt or disappointed so that you're reminded that you're never alone. I want to be there when you fall in love and when you get your heart broken so I can help you through the pain. I wanna be just a phone call away when you need to talk, and just one step away when you need some encouragement or prayer.
I want to be the one to discipline you. To tell you when you're wrong and correct you in fauthfulness and love. I want to be able to beat the shit out of you when you deserve it. I want to be able to stay out of your life when I need to, and let you make the mistakes you need to make to learn. Still, I want to be there when you make those mistakes so I can tell you what you could have done better. I want your inadequacies to be absent in my presence, and teach you that its perfecty okay to be flawed. I want to be able to say I'm sorry when I'm wrong, and apologse when I've hurt you. I want to be there to hold your hand when you need to make a tough decision, or to just hold you tight when you've made a wrong one. I want to be a model of the person you'd want to become.
I want us to have fun together! I want you to love Trey Songz as much as i do so we can go poster shopping together and buy meet and greet packages to concerts. I want us to go get ice cream and chocolates and just lay in bed all day talking and eating just because we can. I want us to take vacations to your favourite places and walk the beach from sunset till dark at mine. i want us to experiment togeteher, try different things, and do new things.
Most of all, little one, i just want to be your mother. To love you in the most honest and sincere way possible, and with the biggest and purest heart. To stand up for you in the face of others. To fight for your right any day, any time. To give you everything I can within my capacity. To be faithful in all my responsibilitites to you... Till death do us part.
...and one day, when I've lived and am aged, I want you to read this back to me, and tell me how well I succeeded.
Patiently waiting till you arrive,
Mommy.
xoxo
That is a letter to my unborn...as i do it.
~***shanpepe***~
